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BULLYING: The Story Of Emily

by Zero

This is BULLYING AWARENESS MONTH on The Y94 Morning Playhouse. We are asking members of The Playhouse Family that have dealt with bullying to share their story to let others know that it does get better. 

Young or old, bullying is never ok. Share your story by emailing Zero at zero.wday@mwcradio.com

All names can be changed to protect the author's identity -- 

This is the story of Emily --

I was bullied mainly throughout elementary school and Jr. High. It was mainly over my weight as I turned to food because my home life sucked. I don't really want to air that back story...but I gained weight. The kids called me names like: "Godzilla", "the blur" (because I couldn't run fast), and the standard "fat-so". I had rocks, sticks, dirt, mud, ice, garbage, or any throw-able object thrown at me. My locker has been spit on, and I have been kicked in the knee, causing it to go backwards and I fell to the floor. Everyone who watched it laughed.

I became depressed I spent many times in various psychiatric units from when I was around 8 or 9 to the final stint at 13 years old. I considered doing things to myself. I can't remember how many times I was admitted to these wards, but it was a lot. All of my classmates didn't know where I was, or why I was there. One genius teacher almost let it slip where I was to a class where everyone picked on me. It hurts to think that any could could be driven to contemplating scary and awful things by their classmates. Oh, how many times I wished I would've gone through with my plans instead of spending time in those places...

Anyways, I thought I had one friend, but that lasted very briefly. She turned on  me and told our classmates things she shouldn't have. It was just another thing to make fun of me about. I ended up not having friends throughout elementary school - Jr. High. I was alone, and no kid should ever be alone. It doesn't do well.

Looking back, I still have issues surrounding the bullying. I hate going in large public spaces like the mall. I hate being around groups of people who may be talking to each other and laughing, about whatever the topic is. They may not even be paying attention to me, but I immediately think that they're laughing about me and I just want to leave the area.

It's hard for me to form relationships with people and make friends. Even now, 5.5 years after I graduated, I only have a couple good friends. I don't really hang out with anyone other than them. I value my friendship with them and I am grateful...because I can't imagine going through life alone like I used to.

For those dealing with this now, know this... you are loved. I may not know you, but I love you. It will get better, I promise. You may not believe me, I know I didn't believe people when they told me, but I promise you that it will eventually stop. Never allow the world to tell you that you're not good enough. Follow your dreams and be kind to everyone you meet. 

**Emily is willing to speak with anyone who needs help with bullying issues as someone who has been there, email your contact information to zero.wday@mwcradio.com, and we will work to make the connection.